Two weeks ago we did a pig roast at our church.  It was such a blast and I couldn't recreated it like Shawnna did here so here's the link, go check it out.

Final BBQ of the season

My First Love

I came here to just take a peek at my blog that I haven't looked at or even thought about in months and what did I see, my last post.  Wow, that hit home again.  I have wondered back into the impatience, the selfishness, the complacency.  I realized this week that I have focused so much of my heart to "honoring the Lord" and in the meantime forgotten my first love, Jesus.  I can honor Him with what I do but if He does not have my heart than all has been lost.  

But we are all like an unclean [thing], And all our righteousnesses [are] like filthy rags; We all fade as a leaf, And our iniquities, like the wind, Have taken us away.  Isaiah 64:6

This sums up in one verse my heart lately.  I have been so busy with the doing that my heart has been lost.  My life has become doing good things, ministry, training, discipleship, and even reading my Bible and praying but it all has been done in vain.  I want Jesus to be my first love again.  How does that happen?  

"But take careful heed to do the commandment and the law which Moses

the servant of the LORD commanded you, to lovethe LORD your God,

to walk in all His ways, to keep His commandments, TO HOLD FAST TO HIM,

and to serve Him with all your heart and with all your soul."

Joshua 22:5

I can not just serve the Lord, I must LOVE the Lord.  My whole heart must love Jesus.  My whole heart must love the cross and what Jesus did for me. Where did the love go?  Since when did love become the equal of serving?  Yes I must serve but I must love first.  Lord help me to have a heart that loves You and then serves You out of the abundance of that love.  If you think about it, please pray for my walk with Him.  Thank you!!

Lead Me To The Cross

Life as a mom.....

So I guess it's been awhile since I posted. Why does this keep happening? Because of life. I really want to try and post what God is showing me through my life as being a mom and wife. AGAIN, I will try.

Yesterday I was humbled. This is what I received from Riah (I'm sad, I can't find it, I was going to take a picture of it to share). I received a bookmark that she made. This is what she wrote "God loves you every step of the way, calm down all the time". Inside I weeped. I knew that if she wrote that, she had to have seen it, the ugliness, the impatience, the selfishness, the temper. Being a mother is hard and tiring but yet rewarding and a chance for major growth. Obviously this is something I need to work on, my patience. So yesterday morning, instead of nagging the kids with the hustle and bustle of the day (and really stuff that doesn't matter eternally) we slowed down in the morning. I sat with them on the couch, drank my coffee, talked with them, played with them, read my Bible with them and then we started the day with school and chores. Emma and I even ended up having a great conversation about making rules vs. the intentions of our hearts.

I need to remember to slow down with my kids. Enjoy them, remember them as gifts, and walk in His grace.

She opens her mouth with wisdom, And on her tongue is the law of kindness. She watches over the ways of her household, And does not eat the bread of idleness. Her children rise up and call her blessed; Her husband also, and he praises her. Proverbs 31:26-28